The gunman was still standing up, gun is jammed and I get a chance to make a move. I throw a chair at him, take him down to the ground and start beating him. All of these things just pop into my head, not really knowing what to do. I just keep punching away and keep punching.
And me, I’m just trying to do damage. I didn’t care if the guy died. So, I was just doing that and for some reason, my arm just freezes up. I can’t choke a dude out anymore, I can’t punch him anymore and I get off.
Found out that my second older brother did make it. He died at 22 and it was just crazy for my mom, she had it the worst. Me, I’m 17 at the time getting ready to graduate, getting ready to go to college.
I started preparing myself. I started thinking that if my brother didn’t make it out, I’m going to have to be the man of the house. I’m going to have to be a father figure. So I didn’t know if I was going to college or anything.
The pain, the sadness, the emotion never goes away. It’s always there, but there is a way to move forward and that’s what I kind of found out throughout the four years of college just working with my coaches and working on controlling my emotions, working on being a better football player, being a better student in the classroom, working on making my family proud.
You need to be strong for the person next to you, strong for your family members, you have to be strong in order to make it out. It’s not easy to do, but it definitely helps if you have somebody there to help you out. Take every opportunity and move forward. Move forward throughout everything. Be positive throughout everything.